Lakshmi.Flavin said: »
omnomnom mineee~
Edit: Second page get in a row
awwwww'chyea.
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Can I have a bite?
Cerberus.Arebella said: »
Cerberus.Draupnir said: »
Can I have a bite?
Not tonight.
But sooner or later I've got to stop feeling this way over someone that barely gives a damn about me. I don't know why I can't detach myself from her.
At least these days I don't miss her every second of the day. At least these days I can listen to Hey, Soul Sister without having to go to the bathroom and splash water on my face. At least these days I can logically admit that there's something wrong with me and that I will need to get help if I can't get through these issues.
And then I see her. Maybe getting coffee, maybe I meet up for lunch; maybe she changes her picture. And then it all surfaces back up.
Every last 5am morning where I'm baking brownies to bring to her. The hot chocolate incidents. Cutting class with her.
Shitting around. Yelling at the guidance counselor because she accused her of something and involved me, I don't even remember how.
Her hair. Her laugh, her magical charming laugh. Having lunch with her for two years.
How she spoke.
How much she's grown since I met her those years ago.
How I have never had anyone before that I felt so intensely for, it all comes back and makes me miserable because I want so badly for someone to do for me what I've done and would do for her. And even more, I want that person to be her.
I worry lately. Am I obsessive? Why can't I shake this?
But sooner or later I've got to stop feeling this way over someone that barely gives a damn about me. I don't know why I can't detach myself from her.
At least these days I don't miss her every second of the day. At least these days I can listen to Hey, Soul Sister without having to go to the bathroom and splash water on my face. At least these days I can logically admit that there's something wrong with me and that I will need to get help if I can't get through these issues.
And then I see her. Maybe getting coffee, maybe I meet up for lunch; maybe she changes her picture. And then it all surfaces back up.
Every last 5am morning where I'm baking brownies to bring to her. The hot chocolate incidents. Cutting class with her.
Shitting around. Yelling at the guidance counselor because she accused her of something and involved me, I don't even remember how.
Her hair. Her laugh, her magical charming laugh. Having lunch with her for two years.
How she spoke.
How much she's grown since I met her those years ago.
How I have never had anyone before that I felt so intensely for, it all comes back and makes me miserable because I want so badly for someone to do for me what I've done and would do for her. And even more, I want that person to be her.
I worry lately. Am I obsessive? Why can't I shake this?
Why haven't you cut her out of your life yet?
Block everything, no exceptions. Move away!
Block everything, no exceptions. Move away!
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That plan didn't work.
MMMMM.... doubledeckers....
You need to move on before we find you in the looney bin man...
I don't think she is in his life anymore... just his noggin...
Also... yes you are...
You need to move on before we find you in the looney bin man...
I don't think she is in his life anymore... just his noggin...
Also... yes you are...
We text still and meet up from time to time.
More than most of my other peers do, at least.
More than most of my other peers do, at least.
them feels. sometimes i wish i didnt have lots of feels too
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
I know how you feel dude. Thats how my ex was... Everything i could ever possibly want and need in a man for the rest of me life. I was ALWAYS there for him WHENEVER he needed me, even if it was like 4AM and i had been asleep and i had to wake up in like two hours, i would be there for him. I loved him more than my own family and best friends, tbh. And i went through years of agony just holding on and trying so hard to fix things between us and he just wouldnt take my help. It sucks... a HUGE part of me still wants my life to be with him, and theres that small part of me that takes me by the hand and shakes her head, because deep inside i know that what he was to me, i wasnt to him, no matter what spews out of his mouth because you can sweet talk your heart out but if you can't follow through with actions, it means NOTHING.
And that's what ended it between us. I was sick of the empty promises and words and i couldnt handle loving someone infinity times more than they did me.
I guess it just takes time and patience to force acceptance within yourself.
Or you can go my route of spamming heartbreak songs on repeat until you lose the ability to produce tears or ache any longer.
Wouldnt suggest it though :P
And that's what ended it between us. I was sick of the empty promises and words and i couldnt handle loving someone infinity times more than they did me.
I guess it just takes time and patience to force acceptance within yourself.
Or you can go my route of spamming heartbreak songs on repeat until you lose the ability to produce tears or ache any longer.
Wouldnt suggest it though :P
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Fairy.Spence said: »
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
I did. There was a huge fight, I said some really hurtful things. I blocked everything.
I couldn't live with myself. The guilt from what I said drove me half crazy.
Writing about your love for her will never help. I can't have the girl I want. Life sucks. Stop making it harder.
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Fairy.Spence said: »
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
Cerberus.Arebella said: »
I know how you feel dude. Thats how my ex was... Everything i could ever possibly want and need in a man for the rest of me life. I was ALWAYS there for him WHENEVER he needed me, even if it was like 4AM and i had been asleep and i had to wake up in like two hours, i would be there for him. I loved him more than my own family and best friends, tbh. And i went through years of agony just holding on and trying so hard to fix things between us and he just wouldnt take my help. It sucks... a HUGE part of me still wants my life to be with him, and theres that small part of me that takes me by the hand and shakes her head, because deep inside i know that what he was to me, i wasnt to him, no matter what spews out of his mouth because you can sweet talk your heart out but if you can't follow through with actions, it means NOTHING.
And that's what ended it between us. I was sick of the empty promises and words and i couldnt handle loving someone infinity times more than they did me.
I guess it just takes time and patience to force acceptance within yourself.
Or you can go my route of spamming heartbreak songs on repeat until you lose the ability to produce tears or ache any longer.
Wouldnt suggest it though :P
And that's what ended it between us. I was sick of the empty promises and words and i couldnt handle loving someone infinity times more than they did me.
I guess it just takes time and patience to force acceptance within yourself.
Or you can go my route of spamming heartbreak songs on repeat until you lose the ability to produce tears or ache any longer.
Wouldnt suggest it though :P
Lakshmi.Flavin said: »
Fairy.Spence said: »
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
After much deliberation with some locals, I've determined that finding a girl of relationship quality is a fruitless endeadvor. I'm just going to nail as many girls from as many different places as I can.
-shrug-
Honestly Mr. X... I used to have a little sympathy for you.. but you put yourself in the situation every time and you know where it leads ya... hard or no... move on or continue the cycle... or... write something great for her then lose your mind because of it and become one of those famous tortured artists... eh...
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Fairy.Spence said: »
Lakshmi.Flavin said: »
Fairy.Spence said: »
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
After much deliberation with some locals, I've determined that finding a girl of relationship quality is a fruitless endeadvor. I'm just going to nail as many girls from as many different places as I can.
-shrug-
Ragnarok.Hevans said: »
Writing about your love for her will never help. I can't have the girl I want. Life sucks. Stop making it harder.
However after my first serious relationship ended, I wrote poetry describing the pain and suffering i experienced and i would show it to people as a form of reaching out for help.
Not sure which one finally got me out of the year-long depression.
But the depression was caused by multiple factors including friend and family stress, and self confidence issues.
/noms burrito.
I happeh nowz tho :D
Lakshmi.Flavin said: »
Fairy.Spence said: »
Lakshmi.Flavin said: »
Fairy.Spence said: »
Didn't work because you caved in?
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
***, I tell ya, nothing but bad news!
After much deliberation with some locals, I've determined that finding a girl of relationship quality is a fruitless endeadvor. I'm just going to nail as many girls from as many different places as I can.
-shrug-
I know :)
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How do I make myself move on further? Don't you think if there was some magical 10 step path I'd have done it?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
Double deckers are way better than the burritos! At taco bell at least...
Quetzalcoatl.Xueye said: »
How do I make myself move on further? Don't you think if there was some magical 10 step path I'd have done it?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
Feeling guilty about cutting off is what you're doing wrong.
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Cerberus.Arebella said: »
Quetzalcoatl.Xueye said: »
How do I make myself move on further? Don't you think if there was some magical 10 step path I'd have done it?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
That was actually a much needed dose of perspective. I needed that one.
Quetzalcoatl.Xueye said: »
How do I make myself move on further? Don't you think if there was some magical 10 step path I'd have done it?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
I tried drowning myself in work, I've met new people. I distanced myself from her. I tried cutting off, I tried a small reintegration to try and friend zone her.
What am I doing wrong?
OMG i swear Laffter everytime i see you're avatar i choke on food because i geek.
:( i wasted a huge bite of burrito.
sob
:( i wasted a huge bite of burrito.
sob
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Ramuh.Laffter said: »
Feeling guilty about cutting off is what you're doing wrong.
This pretty much. I'm pretty sure I was a *** to most girls I was trying to get over.
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