Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

Holy crap! I was wondering why I was lagging so god damn bad. I opened my flist on steam and it said I was playing Chivalry, but I closed it hours ago. Open up task manager and sure enough, it was still running. /facepalm

Edit: Okay so maybe it wasn't THAT much lag, but I could feel and it was obnoxious. x:

Pretty awesome. :O

Yay beat Artorias

God, I don't even want to play Dark Souls right now... or finally get to the Medal ranks in Campaign... goodnight. Have fun. Sweet dreams.

So tonight has been an emotional rollercoaster for me >.>; I really think I ought to close myself off to others for my own emotional safety.

The girl i was really into asked me earlier how i would feel if she started dating again (she got a divorce last month) but it was with a woman. I told her id be a little sad and disppointed because I was really into her.

Well, come to find out the woman she mentioned was one of my roommates, specifically the one I confided in about everything, including the girl i like. I told her how i felt and asked for advice and such.

I feel like tonight was out of a soap opera. One of my best friends betrayed me and took the girl i was after. She even came over to stay a few days (she usually does, to hang out, relax, and do the occasional load of laundry at our place), and I overheard them having sex while cleaning >.>

Time to bottle everything up for good. I'm done. The last time I put my heart out on the line was almost 10 years ago. No one has come along that made me feel like i could love again until this one. And then this fiasco happened.

Whats even worse is my roommate was the one i went to for comfort about ***, so I have no one to run to about this : /


FML.

You always have the random thread to pour your heart out to, Faelar! Even if they seem to only reply to boobs and Dark Souls. :) Sorry about your dramallama though! Your roomie is a douchebagel and you deserve better in a friend.

She feels really bad about it...I believe her, but still. She did betray my trust and confidence by going for the girl I was after.

I just dont know what to feel right now. I feel like shes sincere and really does feel bad because she hurt me.

Matters of the heart can be so cruel. Just when you think you've got a grasp on it, that's when it throws you to the wind. I wish you all the best, Fae. Don't give up on love just yet, bud.

I'm sure she probably does feel bad that she hurt you. Honestly though, how did she think you were going to react when you found out? She made a decision to disregard your feelings in the first place. It's forgivable, like most things because people do make mistakes. But I wouldn't be jumping to go to her about anything any time soon.

I don't have any comforting advice to give, but I think things have a way of working out for good people, and I think you're a good person.

A broken heart can always be mended but the determination to move on pass instances that challenge your emotions must be forged through experiences.
Even as you sit there broken hearted about the situation, you'll rise up and greet the upcoming day a stronger person.
Fear not my friend, there's an admirable woman out there waiting for you. You just have to pull yourself back together and stand tall and seek her.

YOU'RE MADE OUT OF WHAT SUPERNOVAS ARE MADE OF, STOP WORRYING ABOUT A FEMALE

best advice a man can give to another

Thanks guys. I feel better knowing you guys have my back.

Been in the exact same situation myself (except my friend was a guy) and it really does suck. Took 10 months before I made up with my friend but I never spoke to the girl again :/ It's gonna suck for a while but you'll get through it.

I think I am getting hit on -_-

How you doin'?

I would love to post something meaningful and insightful that would make it all go away and make you feel better Faelar. But unfortunately I can't.

I have been cheated on before, but that was different because we were already in a relationship... I don't even know how to start in putting myself in your shoes. My first instinct wants to make some joke about this situation, just to make you laugh or whatever. But I doubt that would help and I can't come up with anything that wouldn't be hurtful to people you obviously still care for.

The only thing I can suggest is don't become like me. I've bottled everything up my entire life and never cared for my own feelings. I can't forgive people (even for stupid ***), and it has made me a spiteful and cruel person. What I'm trying to say is, try and let thing go. Share how you feel about the situation, don't close yourself off.

i wish i was D:

me thinking about the new semester starting tomorrow

Don't worry, I believe in you Liz!

And I believe in you Fae, love is a cruel mistress, just gatta keep on moving forward! You have only been given time, it is up to you now what to do with the time given you!

thanks tim!

Off to bed~
goodnight <3

Real names?! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Sleep well. ^^

I don't think anybody on here know my real name...

Granted I don't think anybody on here knows me on a personal level or cares to either, so meh.

Took 2 hours of photoshop. New Avi. Original design by Kissisa but edited by me to represent my game character. :3