Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

i posted here because i dont know if she'll read pms but i know shell read this thread if she comes back. im sorry for confusing and/or offending all of you. i dont expect you to understand

bro why did you delete that

I'm offended you erased it

Lud changed the mood of the thread. I needed some boob rustling :p

well sorry. just forget i said anything about her leaving, im probably just projecting my loss. it's probably better this way, she can move on more easily without me there to slow her down. always wanted whats best for her. i probably wont post here very often anymore, i dont want her to leave this place, it's too good for her. easier if i did.

i dont care if she had another 100 forums. she loves these ones and the people here, im not pushing her out of them. i like you all too, but it's easier for me to move on than it is for her.

i dont know, but she wont want to talk to me anymore.

should have finished her mythic faster :'(

i think her decision was made long ago

Seha was definitely a fun person. I will miss her posts (she lightens the atmosphere in the P&R threads)

I hope she finds peace

Sorry for your loss pro

Some people don't seem to understand that sometimes to change your life drastically, you need to take some drastic measures... think like when you want to beat that big baddie you leave your family to train in the mountains for 3 years :P

Same reason you decide to pause/quit FFXI, AH can be a distraction

Headstrong is online. Wonder if she'll say hi in RT

I just beat someone in Dark Souls woo!

(It was a real player this time too, not just an NPC)

Yeah, I didn't see my family in 3 years, but when I came back I walked proudly into that retirement center and beat Rocky's ***.

#eyeofthetiger

I get along just fine without my family, so I don't bother trying to go back. Due to current circumstances I see my mother often enough, but I could honestly live without her as well.

I'll phrase it more bluntly.

My sister is a moron and we have never been close, my brother and I can't be in the same room for more than 20 minutes, and I tell people my dad is dead just so I don't have to talk about him. My mother is the only one I have any kind of relationship with, and it has been rocky more often than not.

And my family dislikes me as much as I do them.

I didn't have some tragic childhood or anything, it was the picture of suburban middle class. I just don't get close to people because they inevitably leave, wife included and I fully expect her to stop putting up with me at some point.

That's quite common, unfortunately. Just remember even our parents aren't perfect (duh), and they have their own personal struggles too. The fact that she has a relationship with you still proves that she cares about you, even if at times her attitude might not say the same at times.

I'm not trying to say I know your situation or anything, but if someone leaves you they don't deserve you, so you shouldn't care about them IMO. You shouldn't be afraid to get close to people, or hold those you care about close and show them that you care about them too.

There is happiness to be found from others, whether it be a friend, a family member, a pet, a neighbor, a love interest, a random smiling saying hello, or asking how your day has been, or someone online on a forum. We aren't built to live a solitary life, even if for some we prefer being alone more than others. It's much easier to build yourself up when you have others around you, and although there are people in this world who are negative and don't like you, they are the minority. As long as you put yourself out there, there will be someone who is willing to smile and care about you.