How to go about breaking my ls leader's heart? Hrm hrm. :-(
See, the problem is, I am 100% unmotivated to play FFXI. Number of darns given, approximately zero! It used to be a lot of fun, I used to enjoy it. For the past couple months I've only been un-afk'ing for events and such. I figured when Seekers came out, it would rev me up and get me all excited to play again! Maybe I'd even finish that Almace I started!
Yeah, no. Seekers came out, I was still bored, and still unmotivated, and even worse, I kinda felt like that any effort I put into this update would be overshadowed in the next one. At 75 cap, you could spend trucktons of gil and time getting a relic or a mythic, and later it was overshadowed by emps. Then you could spend some time getting emps, but it's overshadowed as soon as the next big update comes out by delve weapons. And if I bother to go get a delve weapon, the very next big update is going to overshadow that. It kinda feels like there's just no point, no definitive end-goal to work towards.
I mean, if I wanted to play, wanted to go get a delve weapon or whatnot, it would be fine, that WOULD be the point, to go have fun. But it feels more like a chore to go do this stuff, a dreary, necessary chore, and it will be all for naught in the next update (or when I stop playing because, honestly, that's a lot of time spent on a game that could be spent on other things. You know, like other games. xD)
I want a break. A huge, long break, in which no one calls my phone to see if I can lead this event or tell someone that so-and-so will be late. A break where I don't feel obligated in any way to log on at all.
It's like coming home from working all day in real life and going to work all night in-game. I don't wanna!
But how to tell people who depend on me that I'm out? If it's not a permanent out, then they'll be mad when I don't log back in next week. If it is a permanent out, they will be mad that I don't come back ever. If the ls was big or had a lot of folks in it, it wouldn't be so bad. But there's a small nucleus of 5-6 players who are dependable for every event, and my husband and I are two of them. D:
How to go about breaking my ls leader's heart? Hrm hrm. :-(
See, the problem is, I am 100% unmotivated to play FFXI. Number of darns given, approximately zero! It used to be a lot of fun, I used to enjoy it. For the past couple months I've only been un-afk'ing for events and such. I figured when Seekers came out, it would rev me up and get me all excited to play again! Maybe I'd even finish that Almace I started!
Yeah, no. Seekers came out, I was still bored, and still unmotivated, and even worse, I kinda felt like that any effort I put into this update would be overshadowed in the next one. At 75 cap, you could spend trucktons of gil and time getting a relic or a mythic, and later it was overshadowed by emps. Then you could spend some time getting emps, but it's overshadowed as soon as the next big update comes out by delve weapons. And if I bother to go get a delve weapon, the very next big update is going to overshadow that. It kinda feels like there's just no point, no definitive end-goal to work towards.
I mean, if I wanted to play, wanted to go get a delve weapon or whatnot, it would be fine, that WOULD be the point, to go have fun. But it feels more like a chore to go do this stuff, a dreary, necessary chore, and it will be all for naught in the next update (or when I stop playing because, honestly, that's a lot of time spent on a game that could be spent on other things. You know, like other games. xD)
I want a break. A huge, long break, in which no one calls my phone to see if I can lead this event or tell someone that so-and-so will be late. A break where I don't feel obligated in any way to log on at all.
It's like coming home from working all day in real life and going to work all night in-game. I don't wanna!
But how to tell people who depend on me that I'm out? If it's not a permanent out, then they'll be mad when I don't log back in next week. If it is a permanent out, they will be mad that I don't come back ever. If the ls was big or had a lot of folks in it, it wouldn't be so bad. But there's a small nucleus of 5-6 players who are dependable for every event, and my husband and I are two of them. D:
So I got some new flavored water stuff today, after drinking like 3 quarts of the stuff tonight I noticed on the label that this is caffeinated stuff. Guess I am not sleeping tonight!
So I got some new flavored water stuff today, after drinking like 3 quarts of the stuff tonight I noticed on the label that this is caffeinated stuff. Guess I am not sleeping tonight!
I took Pixel and Dante on our daily walk tonight. I carry a little roll of poop baggies on my belt loop to pick up, but tonight Pixel did her business, then while I was fishing a baggie out of the roll, she kicked the poop. She usually turns all the way away from the poop and proceeds to kick grass off in some random direction, but tonight she managed to keep her backside actually to the mess and kick, and connect with it, and the poop went everywhere. We were under a pine tree, so there were tiny pinecones on the ground, and long story short I couldn't find all the poop. :-( Horrible to not clean up after your pup! Horrible! Some poor unsuspecting twerp is going to step in that. ;;
Then when we were almost home, we met a humongous German Shepherd. This guy was HUGE. But his owner said he was nice, and my two midgets are nice, so we let them meet'n'greet. And Dante, that little numbskull, who is perfectly nice to most dogs, decides that it's somehow a good idea to snap at a dog that could swallow him whole. So he snaps at this ginormous shep, I yoink him back and smack him because that's unacceptable behavior and I don't tolerate aggression from him. And this poor Shep pulls back a bit, and gives Dante this look like "Did that food just try to bite me? What?" Then looks up at me and gives me this look like "Did this tiny thing seriously just try to pick a fight with me? What.. what should I do? If I even paw it, it will fall over!"
Anyways. Long stories short, Pixel has no sense of shame and Dante thinks he's a big boy. >.>
So I got some new flavored water stuff today, after drinking like 3 quarts of the stuff tonight I noticed on the label that this is caffeinated stuff. Guess I am not sleeping tonight!
Caffeinated water? <________<
It's like Crystal Light drink mix for flavoring your water. And staying up all night. I think I should move some furniture around.
This is a thread that I found on another website I post at. It can be really really interesting. I thought it deserved a place here.
Post your random thoughts for the day here, or anything else that intrigues you.
For starters, is it possible to give constructive critism to someone who doesn't have a neck? I totally just walked by a girl who didn't. Someone isn't getting a necklace for Valentines day!
And who decided black and white can't be colors? I want to say a racist. I really do.
